Monday, January 04, 2010
My computer died a few months ago. Considering it was already on it's 4th hard drive in as many years, this didn't come as a huge shock. You'd think then, given it's rocky record, that I would have been intelligent enough to back up all my documents, especially my music and my photos.
posted by sordaria @ 11:34 PM
You'd THINK. ha.
I had, however, been smart enough one year ago to back up my music files.
So, today, I finally sat down and downloaded all my saved music, and all my CDs onto my new beautiful MAC.
The process of this brought me back in contact with music I hadn't listened to in years. I've commented on this blog before about how music triggers my memory. It's almost a gutteral thing -- what is brought to mind by those opening chords is not so much a visual memory as a feeling. I just sit here, music on, and I feel again what it was like to step onto campus for the first time....to sit at Joey's and eat garlic fingers...to walk across the bridge towards the Oxford High Street.
So many of these memories have feelings of limitless freedom associated with them. Of being with friends, of having days and nights open up into amazing tales that we could tell and re tell over and over again.
I miss that.
I miss my friends and my days of total freedom.
New years bring new revelations and new dedications.
I think it's time I dedicated more time to myself, and what I like to do. I have to start writing, start taking photos, start getting out to live music. I have to re-find that feeling that was, the feeling which is now mostly taken over my exhaustion and preparation for work.
I have to re-find the happy.
:)
posted by sordaria @ 11:34 PM
