Life as a Science

Alrighty, this is it!
I'm off to South Africa in a matter of hours.
I'll try to post while I'm there...but who knows if I'll find time..what, with all the beaches, mountains, and clubs there are to check out..hahaha

See ya on the flip side. :)

xx
posted by sordaria @ 11:45 AM

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH
That is IT. I am DONE.
This BLOWS, and life is ANNOYING me right now and goddamn mother f*cker and aks;jgfdhkalsjhlasjkhlksahgj

huh. Don't really feel better, but it helped a little.

No need for helpful comments on this one..you are all sweet, but I'm just ranting, and I just need to.

ATRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH.

Fuck.
posted by sordaria @ 6:21 PM

Smell like an ashtray right now. I had forgotten how smokey some of England's pubs can be. But also incredibly entertaining, so I guess I'll risk the lung cancer for now.

It's amazing how one pint (of Strongbow...Pam, aren't you proud?) always brings certain thoughts to mind. A relaxed night at a bar, one pint, and whenever I get home, my mind always focuses on one thing. I guess it's because I always get the very slightest bit on the verge of drunk, and so get sappy, and tired....and my mind always ALWAYS reverts to one train of thought. Or rather, one point in time...or potential point in time to come.

I dunno. It's painful and stupid and shouldn't happen, but it's not really under my control.
The brain is an interesting thing.....sometimes you just gotta sit back and let it do its thing. It's gonna do it anyway...so you might as well learn to enjoy it.

Or, in my case, at least survive it.
posted by sordaria @ 8:17 PM

Yo.

So, I haven't written in forever. Life got busy. :)

It's been a great few weeks though -- very busy, but definitely enjoyable. Had a fabulous dinner at Wadham with the wonderful Susan (thanks so much for inviting me hun...I know you read this. :) I'll have to get you to Mansfield next term!!)

Sorta got dumped...but not really...long story, but after one bummed out night I am totally fine. I guess that goes to show that I wasn't really that into it. If there's one thing I've learned over the last year, is that the amount you hurt is directly proportional to the amount you cared. Not that I didn't care about this last one -- I did -- but I guess I wasn't really THAT into it...which turned out pretty good!! I also think it's rather scary how much my situation paralleled a friend's all the way in Aussieland. That's a little weird hun...maybe we actually are twins separated at birth...or have some weird psychic connection.....hmmmm...eep.

Today my body is in super pain mode. My muscles hurt, but more than that, my SKIN hurts. I did an hour erg session (that's the rowing machines) yesterday, and by the end all the skin was rubbed off my hands and my ankles had blisters. Yup, it's that season again. BUT...what was really cool was that we brought the machines outside on the balcony of our boathouse, and erged while watching the sunset over the river. And afterwards, a bat came and hung out in the erg room. Was an awesome and beautiful evening. :)

What else...hmm..OH...ever have one of those moments when you think to yourself, 'I CAN'T possibly be the only one seeing this, can I?' Like, something is just SO beautiful, or so moving, and you look around you and think that yeah, you ARE the only person seeing it. Or, at least, seeing it for how amazing it is. That happened to me early last week. I was walking to the library, and had my headphones on, listening to Maroon Five (oh yeah, baby, YEAH!). Anyways, just as I got to Wadham College, the song 'Sunday Morning' came on, which to me is an incredibly beautiful, uplifting song, and again at that very moment, the sun came out. So, there I was, listening to that and being bathed in sunlight, and then up ahead of me I see a mother and her daughter. The daughter is on a tiny little bike...like a tricycle without the extra wheels...but there are no pedals, so the girl just kinda pushes herself along, and then tucks her legs in and soars along for a bit. It was an incredible sight though..and it's hard to explain why. The girl was wearing a red and black stripped sweater with the hood up -- and there was a smiling skull and crossbones on the back. She had on a long flowery skirt and yellow rubber boots. Something about watching this girl foot-pedal and soar her way up the sidewalk, on this tiny bike with this smiling skull and crossbones, while all the busy people walked quickly to work or school around her...with the sun coming down and 'Sunday Morning' playing....I know I'm not describing it right. But it was incredibly beautiful. Like the opening scene of a movie or something. Anyway, I don't know if anyone else saw it. But I did. And it made my day.

Okay, on to the writing. It's sunday morning...no sun today...so time to write another 2000 words.

Peace. :)

posted by sordaria @ 7:39 AM